Got to studyyyy

Got to study Got to study Got to study!!!

Next week common test week arghh i havent revise my werk yet...Have to study for my combined Humanities esp Social Studies dun wanna b downgraded...in the other hand i dun wanna b upgraded too im happie being in the remedials im so sure i wont get any benefits with the grp studies no one to guide me along...Vise versa to the Star programe but Star relexing sehh like fun no need to study...Haizz must study lahh grrl soo i tink i wanna stick to remedials haha...

Failed my physics BADLY mann but no surprise ah i didnt study at all...Must do a re-test n dis time i wanna pass i hope ill pass i must pass...And about math haizz ill try my best i dunno lahh bout math its getting harder and harder everyday...Dis sucks faster lah exam over sheezz boring u knoe....So damn worried bout my future if only mum would allow me to continue my studies to ITE i wont b soo fuck up...

Promised Dad i will pass my prelim n also made a deal...If i pass he would re-consider me staying out late at nite after my prom...hurhur...But he say he re-consider only boring ahh...If i fail lagi worst arghhh kk think bout olevel ferst then can think bout prom hehe...

klah need to burn awins cd...Chiow Chin Chow...

ps: uploaded sum new pics free free go see kay not free also must go see...

You guys want me to get scolded rite...TOOO BADDD....Daddy never scold me khekhe i reach hm in time juzzz b4 abang go home...Soo much 4 wanting to go hm early sheezz~

My eyes pain ah its about time i change my contac lens...Still have tons of h/w to do n sumore must burn for dat two BABOONS(awin n suzi) cds...Endi want me to write him the lyrics n find him a song arghhh being helpful is no fun 'boo boo'

Finally today i got the fun which i was searching in this wholeee gloomy month....I had fun tanks guys for makin my day...

Dearest:Today i felt the warmth within us... im so glad dat im destined to b with u guys...Im soo glad dat ive let out all the burdens in my mind i felt soo FREEE now...im sure u guys felt the same after doing so to rite...Problems n sorrows r meant to b shared...ive shared my sorrows, awin shared her confusion ,suzi shared her SECRET blardi hell, haha azzy shared her tears n Dee BUAY khekhe...The jokes n laughter we shared today will b my sweet memories n especially the tears...Ive tried to hide my tears to show u guys dat im STRONG haha no lah i had enuf of crying no use no point juz make my eyes pain onlie...Azzy ur tears sink me remember wat u say one of us had to b strong in order to support each other...Things will change our fate will change time will tell when...Luv u guys muah~

To my lovable fwenz n foes:
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you will look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you cannot grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really look You are not as fat as you imagine.
Do not worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Do not be reckless with other

peoples hearts, do not put up

with

people who are reckless with

yours.

Floss

Do not waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you are ahead, sometimes you are behind the race is long, and in the end, it is only with yourself.
Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Do not feel guilty if you do not know what you want to do with your life the most interesting people I know did not know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still dun.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you will miss them when they are gone.
Maybe you will marry, maybe you would not, maybe yo will have children,maybe you would not, maybe you will divorce at 40, maybe you will dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary what ever you do,
do not congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either your choices are half chance, so are everybody elses. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can do not be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it is the greatest instrument you will ever own
Dance even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you do not follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they

will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they willl be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in Jurong once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Pasir Ris once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you will fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Do not expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Do not mess too much with your hair, or by the time you are 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it is worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen

Mean Girls

Im tired Dead tired
Cant walk... sumone give me a massage pelizz!!
Izit monday tomoro??
SHIT havent do homewerk...Oh poowee ive not been doing them 4 da past 7mnths

Did my shopping
Bought my Hari Raya fabric
AT LAST...
Took me hours b4 deciding on the colour...not to mention the design
Dad was frustrated bro was bored...So they end up roaming elsewhere

Went to Chinatown
Shop at Chinatown
Guess wat?? i finally bought my SHADES
WOOHOO!!

Not only that...
i got myself...
Not one...not two
But THREE necklase...cool huh...khekhe

But i broke one of them
the seashell one
the nicest one
My FAVOURITE one...

Ohhhhh look wat u've done
u've made a fool of everyone
Ohhhh well it seems like such fun
untill u loose wat u had won

Hurhur!!

Fought wif dad
In da car
Damn Piss off
But settle already

Ohh look at the time
i got to do my homework
damnn look at my bed
haishh 4get bout homewerks

ZzZzZzZz

morons on the loose

I juz dun see any means in life animore...So sad huh!!...I cant study animore i tried i swear i tried but nutinks go inside my head...i tend to get cranky...often i cried alone in my rm...U all dunno rite now i tell u...Ive juz finis reading my past entries frm my 2 old blogs n i realise dat im soo much happier last time it makes me sad reading bout my past...How i wish i could turn bek time i wanna b happie as last time i wanna b the old me cheerful bubbly...

Im planning to make another blog im still gonna keep dis blog but the other one is highly personal...This blog is getting too public sumtimes i have to think twice b4 posting coz i knoe ppl whom i wont want em to read will read...I guess im only gonna share it with my love ones my clost ones those i devote my soul to...dun worrie bro i will tell u too...

Slept the whole afternoon today feeling rather tired today...Sorie su chi n doink didnt follow u guys out mayb next time aitez...Was waken up by sum smses by apek(talk bout dis later) n Fadi...I miss fadi so glad she msg me at least i knoe im not 4gotten hehe...N bout dat Irritating apek arghh i dunno wat to say ah...U wanna spread rumours go ahead lah i dun mind...U wan ppl to think im ur gf go ahead since u have no shame rite...But please dun put words into my mouth...I had onlie question u bout the gf think havent yet about the Les think i dunno whos spreading this matter...Either u or Hazrin i dun care all i knoe i ditch the both of u dun ever let me see or even smell u animore ...I juz cant stand this...Ohh god give me a life i need a break...

...

Mums still not home im famished sumone feed me plzzz...Grandmummy didnt cook so Dad steam sum Sausages for me to eat n damn it was salty yulcks ended up eating chipsmore cookies hehe...Alexs calling i dun wanna answer hehe wanna knoe y? bcoz rite he's b'day is coming later he ask for present hehe bankrupt ah me...July soo many bday babies sehh...

Had my Eng prelim orals juz now...No words can describe how nervous i felt juz now mayb bcoz they are recording our conversation n dat makes me nervous...Well it turn out relatively okay except for the passage my toungue keep on sliping...The conversation was about an embarrasing momment dat had occured to me...Well i talk about my Sec1 teachers day dance audition hahaha dunwanna talk bout it damn malu sia...i made my invigalator laugh sooo i guess i hit my score haha i hope!!...luckily i never talk about those times when i fall bcoz when i ask the rest most of them would say they fall...So its like common already

Celebrated zimahs bday for awile during recess n i got the privilledge to pich her since i was sitting juz beside her...Should see the blue-black on her hand wahaha power ahh...But she soo bad dunwanna eat the cake we make for her wat sehhh...haha nvm zimah if i were u also i wont eat eww gross...Juz imagine dis...Smash Choco cake with Ice lemon tea n vitasoy chicken n watermelon as the topings n dunno lah watelse they add n yah a straw for its candle haha pathetic...Bleukkk yulcks...Then Awin go n slap her hahaha then she cry khekhekhe wahh i scared seh when she cry then she lay her head on me n cry even more haizzz all her tears on my uniform...Takpelah fren punyer pasal...

Today Teachers PMS day...Should see how Mr Adam react juz now in skool wahduhh frm morning shout like mad gorilla sia scary...Then the Renee fren also kena scold haizz poor grrl she look so innocent...Miss Eng also scold here scold there then morning2 onlie i kene scold by Mrs Eng "Eh why ur skirt so short" my problem ah hehe i juz pull zimah with me n run away frm her i mean it i really run haha...Tomoro muz change skirt ah got Mr Adam period later kene syarahan...

After skool watch Awin play soccer at skool 4 awhile...Its been a long time since i watch her on the field...Miss watching her play soccer...Shes good though esp in the 2nd half but too bad i went off early...Dunwan to go off early but sum putri lilin cant stand the sun haizz i still want to watch ****** u knoe...nyahaha

Bro juz showed me a pic of mummy when she was 17 n darn shes gorgeous...No kidding i want her looks preety sia i jelez...One day ill show u guys ermm u guys means the bum onlie horr hehe...K lah i tink i wanna do h/w now but my history file at skool my math 10 yr series dunno at where how to do ah??...Easy no need to do lolz hurhur...Kk byerr!!!

Kau Pergi Jua

Wajahmu
Seindah serinya pelangi yang indah
Seharum mawar putih segar berkembang
Wajahmu
Mengapa sering terbayang dimataku
Sehingga terbawa di dalam mimpiku

Sayangku
Tahukah kau di dalam hatiku ini
Tersimpan perasaan cinta yang suci
Kau bunga
Inginku suntingmu menjadi miliku
Lantas ku abadikan dalam jiwaku

Sayangnya
Harapan yang selama ini ku bawa
Hancur berkecai musnah jua akhirnya
Semuanya bagaikan sebuah mimpi

Kau pergi jua
Setelah cinta ku kini membara
Belum sempat ke curahkan kasihku
Kau pergi tak kembali.....

ten ten ten ten

Ehh 12am already ahh azzy's bday...Zimah zimah i sing bday song 4 u kay

Happie Birthday To You
In Canteen got sudu
Got pingan n got gerapu
N da straw looks like you

Ehhh cantik ah it rymes...hahaha...

Borin ah i cannot sleep...Talking with Adan now wat mood sehh he sudently call me...AWIN i got sharil ishak's number Adan give me wahaha u want!!! kiss me ferst hahahaha...Skool today like usual nutinks new...Lessons after lessons n as usual lah math period only i ZzZzZzZ khekhe...Art period paint only one of the baby face then go lepak session with the other painters n talk about life after sec skool...Their talking ah very the motivating sia motivate wat u knoe...motivate go ITE Bishan take Nursing wahhduuhh im actually actracted to ite bishans nursing already sehh hahaha...Then kakak Zah scold us say 4 wat go ITE...Nanyang Poli got Nursing mite as well go straight Poly rite haizz YAlor yalor!!!...BUt nursing hmmm dunwan ah later like mummy eee dunwan ah...I want Physioterapist !!yeah!! Like nursing also watt but better lahh but i heard its for Alevel cert holders onlie awww...hope not...

Chems remedial another want...half period study half period gossip session with Mr chiow haha...Basically gossip bout his fav X students ah the Silveraties all soo popular dancers..."DAncing Dancing ape punya orang o Level still fail"<-- ahak mr chiow fav line..."Masak Air MAsak Air"<--Another fav line hehe my teacher very cute one ah actually but can b cranky at times...Ehh but dun look down on siveraties ah they r great dancers i heard they juz won 1st price in ITE bishan Racial HArmony thingy ah dunno wat...Ehh i wanna go Ite Bishan ah like fun sehh haha...Got alot of hensem grrls hahaha...k craps...ONe more thing today i officially hate Shazalie Binte Sharhan he took my favourite pink pen n ran off after remedial n pass it to sum lower sec playing roller blade idiotic arghhh!!....N stop immitating my voice u sound so Gay eeww...

Im Sick sob sob...

Didnt go skool today...Im Sick fcuk i hate it mann!!...Slept the whole day n i juz woke up hmmm wat time izit now??...Zimah also never cum skool haha dat grrl lazy pig n guyz we didnt pakat ahh shes the lazy one who dunwanna cum to skool...My temp is 38degrees izit high??..Should i see a doctor but i lazy ahh...Yesterday worst i tink...i vomit vomit like hell my stomach pain sehh i got a feeling its bcoz of the faggies dat wan gave me yest...I was goin hm frm skool where i met up wif wan hafiz ram nazir n one more guy i dunno they ask me to hang wif them so i did...N i knew the ciggie was an old one i can taste it...Go home onlie i flat my head spinning2 again like wanna die hehe really tak bluffing...Then i tink my stomach masuk angin ah coz didnt eat the whole day plus the stupit ciggie makes it worst...at night i sleep wif mummy haha she take care of me sooo sweett hahaha siow lah...Havent eat sehh wanna eat scared i vomit again...Tomoro like dunwanna go skool again but then must see doctor aiyah leceh ahhh...Nvm lahh i blog again at night...

Lets get retarded...

Sumone dedicated tat song below to me n im stuck to it..NIcee!!..i tink..Had been dwnloading songs the whole day..Many songs to catch up wif since the day my internet was down..Juz finish talking wif azzy luv talking wif her we'll gossip like no ones bisness hahaha..Havent done my social studies h/w..Wonder if Awin n Dee had done it already hmmm..Never study for my chem n phys test tomoro..ala fail fail ahh dun give a damn..My revenue is to start studying next wk n today is not next wk so i guess i wont study then haha siow ah me..GRRL WAKE UP O LEVELS CUMMING..How i wish sum alien invaders juz steal all the o level papers or get burn accidently or juz vanish mysteriously orrr err OK im talking craps..Oh Yah i got a chinese name for my self 'Chioa Mei Li' nyahaha i guess the chinese would knoe wat it means n another name 'Iron' (pronouncation: E-Ren) haha wanna knoe where i got all these name ask me personally..Nyway anione out there an experts on hair problem plsss cum to me i need help wif my hair..Im Balding arhhh really no kidding im shadding hudreds strands of hair per day...N theres soo many split ends n fly away hairs which i hate soo much...If u guys dun notice now days i either tie my hair up or wear a cap never wanna let go animore unless its wet lahh...Hmmm should i cut??...i tink i wanna cut short 'REAL' short...hahaha...nahh gonna wait till grad nite's over then im gonna cut it woohoo no ones gonna stop me not even Daddy wahaha!!...Ehh endi call long time never talk wif him k lah wanna talk on da phone Gossip Time !!BYE!!

This cant b right

This Can't Be Right
by 2 Play

Album :


Who am i x 5

ohhhhhh

yo who am i, nayla boss, i keep it tight
guess we got the raghav on the mike
gimme the light, against the flame, 2play

2play:
i know i shudnt but i got 2 c u 2nite
i pick you up around nine,
but i swear that this cant happen no more,
cos wen im lookin in my babies eyes
i cant bare 2 tell her more lies
i gotta b stronger now then i was b4
but wen u hold me girl its so real
im feelin things 4 u i cant feel
i no i shudnt stay but girl i jst cant leave

chorus:
this cant b right
that it dusnt feel so rong
but wen im all alone,
im thinkin of u but im with her
this cant be right that its u thats on my mind (my mind)
but shes still in my life (yo)
but ur the one thats stands by my side

i wanna let go but theres summit that makes me hold on (tell em)
but baby this jst cant go on,
and were better off wit nobody nos
i never 4ght we wud of lasted so long
so perfect but girl its so rong
cos i got some body waitin at home
but wen u hold me girl its so real
im feelin things 4 u i cant feel
i no i shudnt stay but girl i jst cant leave

chorus:
this cant b right
that it dusnt feel so rong (so rong)
but wen im all alone (all alone)
im thinkin of u but im with her
this cant be right that its u thats on my mind
but she still in my life (my life)
but ur the one thats stands by my side

who-a blast er blasts who blasts you
its got a concicense like ooo
im gonna get mine u no i dnt rele care
but i got a soft spot 4 ur girl rite there
hate 2 b the mistress aint tryin 2 b the wife
got a hubby here so we gotta keep it tight
keep it on the hush on the low or wateva
aint no competition i cud tel her 2 do better

girl u no i cant, theres 2 much 2 lose
its u that i want but, put urslef in her shoes
it hurts 2 fink if she only new
what'd be on her mind, what she'd be going throughhhhhh

chorus:
this cant b right
that it dusnt feel so rong
but wen im all alone
im thinkin of u but im with her
this cant be right that its u thats on my mind
but she still in my life
but ur the one thats stands by my side (ut oh ut oh ut oh)

x3

this cant be right

zero 4, yo
nayla, 2play oh
yea
yo im dun

Massive Headace

FINALY my internet is ok hehe
tanks to Sharon who fix it for me luv u soo much grrl...Sorrie if i
humiliated u at esplanade juz now i was juz xcited when bro called to
say the internet is werking again hehehe...

My head's spining like a massive whirlpool...Cant take it feel like
tearing out my brain n juz throw it away arghh mayb i fag too much juz
now...I juz realise i finis all 7 in one day wow ive set a record...Had
my eng mock exam juz now me n dee came late so we were like stars
hehe...I did my compo anyhow as i dont really have the mood i guess if
i read it back i think it is not relevent to the tittle given
hehe...Went to S'pore Confrence Hall after dat for sum SYF
art-exibition damn cool man being an art student i felt the envyness of
not being able to produce such masterpiece...Felt like stealing one of
it n pass it up as my O'level work ahaks...Im actually inspired by one
sculpture tittled mother's love whereby the sculpture was surrounded by
many breast mothers breast i suppose...Kinda gross actually...Then went
to town ate luch there n damn i was full after eating meet up wif
awin then bla bla bla lazy ah to type...Then azzy n ahmad joined
us...Wanted to go to the HipHop comp at YP but changed our minds after
seeing many mats minah goin so its like B-O-R-I-N-G...Suggest to go
Esplanade instead since my intention of goin out was to clear my mind
but i guess i made a wrong choice of place...Esplanade got memories
lorr memoes of my last date there ..sob..sob..Pathetic i was feeling
kinda of crummy there remembering bout the past should have gone to
FortCanning instead sheezz...Met Hanafi hahaha i covered my face with
my cap after seeing him...I dunwanna talk bout him animore spoil my
mood more hahaha...Then i tot i saw nad at the roof-top wif dunno who
waving at us...Cant really see frm the bottom...Ishh my head ah fcuking
pain i tink i gotta sleep...Chiow Chin Chiow...

bla bla

At Azzy's crib rite now listening to Galang Gal...Funnie song  haha but nice very the rythmeatic...Lazy sehh wanna go home nutink to do there...Azzy's doin her DnT stuffs dat reminds me i havent finish my art cozwerk n i still have tons to do...Tomoro got eng mock exam haizzzz how i wish my skool juz burn down sick n tired of it im soo ready to change to another skool...Nvm hope to realief stress tomoro goin out to town with them...Ive uploaded the last saturday pic free free see kay...Klah wanna sleep hmmm hungry ahh "zimah i wanna eat" nyaha no shame ah me...

...lalala...

Im not being myself lately...Not cheerful not noizy not lively not bla bla bla...Sumtimes i juz feel like quiting im juz soo glad dat i got such caring n concerned frenz...I dunno how am i gonna continue with my life if isnt becoz of them...Awin again i say its not ur fault grrl please dun feel guilty bcoz of dis n please please dun ruin ur relationship wit her juz bcoz of me aitez!!...Azzy,Awin ur msges really touches me i broke down again n again after reading it i will promise not to do any stupid stuffs again aitez...I still need support frm all of u i can feel preety depressed when im all alone...NAd ur rite wat cums araound goes around n i believe its true...Tanks for ur BIG hug u cheer me up tanks grrl...Ikha tanks for the support i appreciate it hope we can still b fenz n hope to c u again n the rest esp FAD i still wanna pinch her miss pincing her...hahaha...Life goes on O level cumming n i havent start revising...Frenz i really need ur help please guide me in studies n also in life...I juz hope i will b cured from feeling depressed...Its true no use thinking bout dis animore but i need time to heal its no easy for me everytink happened too quickly...:<...Arghhh nyway gonna meet Hui MIn LAter to pay up for the dunno wat club ah...blog in again when i have time...

Pathetic Idiotic Sarcastic Lunatic

In art room rite now listening to baby boy hehe...den the two chicken also beside me..suzi n dee..Too bad cant blog in often rite now since my server at hm is giving me problem sucks mann!!...Dun feel like doin my art dunno how to paint my artpiece n mdm ang dunno go where futhurmore got no mood to do...Felling so down rite now boohoohoo...talk with azzy n awin on wednesday its been along time we since we last talk...all bz with own life..haiz dunno seh wat else to say..(suzi:kesian tau ili..skarang dier ngah depressed..haha..)...eh ape seh krg...(dee:tu ar kesian sak my fren..well grrl..chill k..wat goes round comes round..hmm...)...tu ah kesian lah aku...(suzi:k lah ili..tak mau depressed2 k..nanti stress susah...u still got us k..nitink we'll be dere for u grrl..hahaha..muuaaakkkzzz)...(dee:yalah grrrl...u hav us..niwey o level juz a few months away..juz concentrate on ur studies..no time 2 think bout 'oder stuff'..take care k grrl..*muaks*)k lah krg..sibuk aje..aku nyer turn lah...haizz see my fwenz sooo sweet luv dem berry much...nvm me strong grrl haha...klah i tink i got to continue with my art wanna finis up asap..chiow chin chiow...

bleak pathetic..

Im talking to Ili right now. She asked me to do her a favour.. She said that she cant be updating her blog for da moment. because her farking explorer cant be open.

She so fed up now because she screwed up her Mt Oral examination. So dont make her farked up bcos she will screw YOU!It can be you.. YES YOU!! i mean you!! pathetic moron. so kpo wanna noe bout her life.. know already dun ask directly la..

She listening to one of da oldskol song.. so noice.. k tats all folk..

pls wait for de next entry.. will keep ya update.


from one of da bumm.
'mahalo'

Ili the princess

Hmm how many days have i not blog in errr 3 days i guest or izit 4 wateva lah...Kay lets catch up with my daily bulettin...
Celebrated Youth Day yesterday still wondering y dont they celebrate it today???The concert was raletively okay much much better then last yr but still cannot beat the concert during my sec 1 n 2 time...The Eng teachers wore their Sec Sch Uniform n they look soo cute in it blek~...Me azzy n awin in front were laughing like hell watching the teachers perform dunno bout the rest at the back ah...My form teacher Mr Chow sing nice u knoe haha makes my heart melt wahaha...Math department put up a "stunning" dance didnt knoe they dance well hahaha mrs soh shut up by BEP dance step was the best hahaha n mr dunno wat head bang like theres no tomoro...Theres presentation on the teachers when young n was uber surprise to see most of the teachers look preety n hensem when young esp Mrs Eng my math teacher...The most touching presentation was by the Humans dpt although its kinda boring but it touches my heart with its quotes...The lamest was MT dpt "Singapore River" wats dat got to do with Youth Day?? But its cute though watching them play with the soft toys...Went hm early since theres sum youth callenge goin on but we skip it n go hm err not go hm ah go dee's house to sleep wahaha...i juz luv to sleep at her house...
Got to do a PowerPoint Presentation on Russian'ss Civil War n i dunno how to start arghhh...Tomoro got Olevel List Com pray for my succees aitez peeps...Feel like sleeping again hehe tired ahh...Wanna see how adourable i sleep with my smelly pillow nyahaha...



Im still seeking revenge to the person who took this grrr!!!